SHE could not buy a card or flowers, nor could she convey her love. For Samantha Gosset last Sunday was the first Mother’s Day without the woman who taught her how to be herself.
All the 28 year old could do from her Birmingham home was hold on to precious memories of mum Crystal who died in a house fire in Derrylin alongside her 16 year old son Edward, 19 year old daughter Diane and granddaughter Morgana who was under two.
“It was one of the hardest days so far, the fact that after everything that happened I wouldn’t be able to celebrate like I normally did. I couldn’t bring myself to do much,” Miss Gosset told The Impartial Reporter, in an exclusive interview this week.
The blaze ripped through the small bungalow the family were renting near Doon Mountain in the early hours of the morning and was so intense most of the roof caved in.
“I am trying to take one day at a time and hope that it does become easier with time as I have told so many times. At the moment it is not easy at all, every day is a challenge,” she said. 
The next time Miss Gosset leaves her mother flowers will be at her funeral service when the three generations of the one family are eventually laid to rest following their tragic deaths two weeks ago.
When the bodies are eventually released by police the funerals are expected to take place in Northern Ireland with plans for a special vigil to be held in Derrylin.
“I am absolutely dreading having to say a final goodbye but I will be getting myself through it because I have my partner, my grandparents, the support of people in County Fermanagh. I know they will be by my side,” said Miss Gosset. 
“Due to the nature of how the family perished we are opting for cremation. When that happens we are happy for the residents of County Fermanagh and Derrylin to know. When there is a vigil we will be attending, we have no timeline yet due to the active investigation.”
A fundraising campaign to help Miss Gosset raise money for her family’s funerals has so far raised over £400, including a £100 donation from Sinn Fein MLA Sean Lynch. 
“We can’t thank the people of County Fermanagh enough, we now feel like part of the community. 
We have decided that since we have gone over our fundraising goal of £300 we are going to spend as little of this as possible to get over to Northern Ireland.
“Everything that is left over, every single penny, will be put into charities and services in County Fermanagh, whether that is local services or the Fire Service. Charity begins at home and I think the charity should go back home as well,” she said.
The grieving process is made all that more difficult for her as each day passes and she recalls frantically searching the internet for news about the deaths of her family members.
“I got a call from my Grandma after the police turned up on her doorstep, she instantly told me and I went online to see what was happening and that’s when I was greeted by pictures and reports and then the shock set in. 
“I almost dropped the phone. I froze, I didn’t want it to go in, I didn’t want to believe it, but I couldn’t deny it. I didn’t want to accept it. The fact we are so far away it made it a big harder.”
Little is known about the four who died in the fire with claims they used different names while living in Fermanagh but now for the first time Miss Gosset can paint a picture of what her loved ones were like: quiet, unassuming, creative and family orientated.
“They liked the countryside, they liked their own space,” said Miss Gosset.

CRYSTAL GOSSET
She was a good mother, she was as good as she could be. She wasn’t a saint but let’s face it none of us are saints. She was very creative and encouraged all of us to be as creative as we wanted to be. She used to make jewellery, she taught me to make candles, sweet treats. She used to take me for a kick about of football, to get me out of the house. She wanted me to learn new skills. 
I have a few memories of her dancing around the kitchen with my Grandma. She was a very happy woman, she was happy with her lot in life. She was always friendly with people, always polite. My favourite memory of her when I was little was when she used to pick me up, put me on her lap and introduce me to games where I could learn to dress up Barbies. She taught me about fashion, different colours, what went together. She did everything she could. 

EDWARD GOSSET
He was a lot like Crystal, he was happy. He loved the outdoors, nature and was a bit shy at the same time. He used to do knitting and crocheting, another one who had a creative aspect and was encouraged to be creative like the rest of us. 

DIANE GOSSET
She was full of life is the easiest way to explain her. She loved drawing, it was one of the things she was amazing at. She was so talented. I would say that probably comes from my Grandma, to be honest.